It all seems unspeakably vile and while
You wretch the memory of all you understood
The vandal laughs into his hood

from Dirty Projectors – About To Die Lyrics on Rap Genius

Meaning

Life sucks but you know you have to move forward to a new understanding, i.e., “retch the memory of all you understood.” While this is happening, haters gon' hate…

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